packing

dear diary,

i'm moving blogs. why? because i can :P

new blog

love,
yasmine

entry 15: n_n

dear diary,

he remembered.

love,
yasmine

entry 14: words

dear diary,

officially posted black hole last night. i don't know, but i still get that thrill when i post a new story. it's exciting. i had to rewrite that first prologue two times to get it right. i still don't think it's all that good. oh well.

dramaticstarlet is like my fanfiction idol. she's such a good author, very popular, and witty even when she doesn't try to be. (and i feel kind of like a creep writing about her :P) i want to be as successful as her. but hey, 229 reviews for a story is a good start, right?

of course, writing that chapter took a lot longer than usual because he keeps talking to me. i don't know what got into him. we NEVER talk but now he breaks any small pause in fear that i've left. he's clingy. but that's cute?

this is confusing man. i think i won't go online today just to see what he'll say tomorrow. i'm evil. i know.

love,
yasmine

entry 13: wishes

dear diary,

i made all-state! but see, here's my theory. you don't necessarily have to be the best at something, you just have to choose a something where there aren't a lot of people better than you. i don't think i'm any better than those who didn't make it. i just think there are less people better than me. see, it's all in the comparison.

and perhaps catching 11:11 on saturday had something to do with it?;)

our bathroom is still getting done. i haven't showered or brushed my teeth and i feel kind of disgusting. oh well. it's spring break. who tries?

i had an interesting dream though. there was a self-conscious stripper (i don't know), a new school with an elevator, a pool party, a weird confrontation, he found out i liked him, i reminded myself to tell peyton, then somehow another guy was exclaiming his love for me only i wasn't sure if it was for real or if i magically ended up in a play. all i know is i was kind of confused/sad to know it was only a dream.

yeah, maybe this crush thing has gone on too long. what of it?

love,
yasmine

entry 12: triangle

dear diary,

the whole arm around shoulder thing. the whole head on shoulder thing. the whole sitting by me thing. maybe it means something. or maybe i just think too much.

in the time since the last entry, some very crucial events happened.

1) i found out that other guy likes me. you know, that other guy who i've known since forever and who i laugh and am comfortable with because he's everyone's best friend. yeah, that one. now all i can think is what if i led him on?

2) the incident. in which boy number one and boy number two both walked me to class and it was the definition of awkward. but worse yet, i accidentally sent a text to the wrong person and now boy 2 knows i like boy 1 and that i know he likes me. confused? me too.

3) my friends like boy 2 better :(

oh, but i finished finding may! i got 220 reviews as of now and i'm really satisfied. sometimes, i just want to hide behind blueSKIES247.

love,
yasmine